Alright well I am not quite well yet - I went to the doctor yesterday and found out I had tonsillitis. So with a strong dose of antibiotics I have been "sleeping it off" but not without going into work this week and especially yesterday, where, the plague has come upon the building. With all the babies going home with the super flu bug that is INFESTING - and I am just waiting....
At any rate I am at least getting out and around and it is not as bad as the nurse acted like it was - she didn't even need one of those throat - light things to look - she could see all the swelling and redness and puss without it. YUCK!
So needless to say I haven't even THOUGT of Resolutions... well that is a lie - I've THOUGHT about them but have done nothing. I have been eating better and everyone at work who say me says I've lost weight (
I never noticed - but I'll take it!).
So I will start with one, that most of you can keep tabs on - to keep in better touch with my friends and family via blog, emails, letters, cards, and phone calls.
After living here for so long I have some very sad journal entries from when I first was here, that told of how much I missed everyone - desperately. But, as time has worn on, although those people are ALWAYS on my mind - I became numb to those feelings, I think as self preservation. I remember one day after Chris had bought tickets to America, I didn't want to go - and he didn't understand. No one would - why would I not want to go over and see everyone again? I told him, it would be too hard. It would be too hard to realize how much I NEED them and then have to leave and get used to being alone all over again. That is exactly what happened! In the last week I have found myself re-reading those entries from 18 months ago and am discouraged that I feel the same way again. This time though, there is a very pressing and urgent feeling to get back but we are stuck - stuck with bills and unemployment and just the logistics of it all and that is just as frustrating. There is strength in those journal entries - I GOT THROUGH... there is a light at the end and even now I am beginning to feel "normal" again, and have even noticed my English "accent" is coming back with a vengeance.
So why the story? My family and friends are my so important to me and every time I get an email from any of them my happiness boosts, and that pain of missing them is dulled for a little while - it is great. But I figure I need to do something too, so, that is the reason for ONE of my resolutions!!!
Stay tuned for more.....
P.S. Would you like to see some pictures of my favourite things? NEW PICS POSTED!
At any rate I am at least getting out and around and it is not as bad as the nurse acted like it was - she didn't even need one of those throat - light things to look - she could see all the swelling and redness and puss without it. YUCK!
So needless to say I haven't even THOUGT of Resolutions... well that is a lie - I've THOUGHT about them but have done nothing. I have been eating better and everyone at work who say me says I've lost weight (
I never noticed - but I'll take it!). So I will start with one, that most of you can keep tabs on - to keep in better touch with my friends and family via blog, emails, letters, cards, and phone calls.
After living here for so long I have some very sad journal entries from when I first was here, that told of how much I missed everyone - desperately. But, as time has worn on, although those people are ALWAYS on my mind - I became numb to those feelings, I think as self preservation. I remember one day after Chris had bought tickets to America, I didn't want to go - and he didn't understand. No one would - why would I not want to go over and see everyone again? I told him, it would be too hard. It would be too hard to realize how much I NEED them and then have to leave and get used to being alone all over again. That is exactly what happened! In the last week I have found myself re-reading those entries from 18 months ago and am discouraged that I feel the same way again. This time though, there is a very pressing and urgent feeling to get back but we are stuck - stuck with bills and unemployment and just the logistics of it all and that is just as frustrating. There is strength in those journal entries - I GOT THROUGH... there is a light at the end and even now I am beginning to feel "normal" again, and have even noticed my English "accent" is coming back with a vengeance.
So why the story? My family and friends are my so important to me and every time I get an email from any of them my happiness boosts, and that pain of missing them is dulled for a little while - it is great. But I figure I need to do something too, so, that is the reason for ONE of my resolutions!!!
Stay tuned for more.....
P.S. Would you like to see some pictures of my favourite things? NEW PICS POSTED!
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